This week has been all about me looking back to where it all started. Getting real with myself and my vision/passion. So here it is....
I found an old notebook with a few fun things in it. First thing was notes on helping with the creation of the music video, "Constance". Constance was where it all began for me. Its when I first heard about human trafficking for the first time and how it affected the porn industry, brothels, strip clubs, and all areas of the sex industry. Its when my heart and mind opened up to a world I knew nothing about. And now has become the name of my signature red color in my makeup line be Lovely.
The entry talked about the locations we were shooting at, the actors, the props and jobs that I had to help with to bring the final project of this heart wrenching music video done by Mr. J. Part of a moment that changed my life forever.
The second entry I found was my first "gig" with makeup for a porn star. I feel like I need to quote myself so you get the full emotions that I was feeling in that moment.
January 9, 2009 (Las Vegas, NV)
"Today is my first makeup gig. I am terrified. I am thankful. I am hopeful.
I am terrified cause I feel incapable. I am thankful because my dream is coming true. And I'm hopeful because of touching a life.
Krissee and I are going to Room 2794 in Planet Hollywood to meet Alyssa. She is a porn star that we met at the convention.
God, I need you to work miracles today. I know I cant do this alone. I am way out of my comfort zone (which I am thankful for). I need your help with my words with Alyssa and the other girls. I want her to feel loved. I want her to know that there is better for her life because you have created her. I need you to guide my hands and creativity with the makeup. This is my first "client". I have only practiced a few times.
I want Alyssa and the other girls to see you in me. I want them to not only know your love but feel it. God I need you more than I ever have before. This is a huge step and I am excited! Do big things even through this one time. May more opportunities come because of it. K....here I go. Thank you for everything. I do this in your name, to love others."
A lot has happened since then. My life has turned upside down. I've had some of the hardest moments in my life since then. I've failed, I've thrived, I've learn, I've grown, but the one thing that hasnt changed is my heart to love people. No matter where someone is in life, no matter what they have done, no matter how many times they screw up, no matter what they think of themselves...one things stands firm, that I will share a love that I have experienced myself. One that will never fail, and one that anyone can feel because nothing done is too big to forgive.
I'm not one of those people that shouts from the rooftops that I am a Christian, its not the first thing that I bring up when I talk to people. I am a Christian but I fully believe with my whole heart that it is an action. Its not a religion or an excuse, or a right to tell people they are wrong. Everyone has their own way to do life and I claim this one. Everyone is made for different things, but we are all made to do great things. That is what I know and believe.
My heart has the same passion as it did back in 2005 when "Constance" was created and in 2009 when I had my first "gig". Those were two pivotal moments in my life that have helped shape who I am today. I want everyone to know that they are loved. I want to use makeup to allow people to see for themselves that they are beautiful because of the story that makes them who they are, not just the colors that enhance the outer beauty that they have been given. That everyone, has something to offer. EVERYONE.
be Lovely is my tool for others to use to spread a love for people and an awareness on human trafficking. It is a way of life. Its a way to bring all kinds of people together. I am proud of be Lovely and the people that have been apart of this vision with me. I am forever grateful. To all of you that have supported be Lovely by buying makeup and in turn sharing what be Lovely is all about, to those that have heard the message and been touched, and now spread that same message....you get it, you get that be Lovely is an action and I thank you. Lots of love....Rachel
